so um ..

so hmmmmmm..
rainbow..
going 'round out that afternoon
to look through the raindrops
to see if i can see it..
nope..
so hum..

how many times do i say
so ummm?
i have started a sadhana
~ each time i hear
(and catch)
myself ~
i chant so hum (so ham)
which translates ..
i am that..
i am that that is
i am pristine awareness 
ultimate reality
so hum..so what...

it is a dandy way of keeping
myself awake to whatever what is is is what i want*
and when i hear another so humming it..
i do the same..
imagine how many times i wake myself up?
ten thouand times or more
reset
clear light mind..
for one bright moment
* galway kinnell - prayer

so ummm..
how would we live without
those wee brown birds whose songs last
a lifetime in the deep woods..?
with such a trill and thrill?
the praises, the prayers..?
so ham
i am that!